It's Not You It's Me

Wait. It really is me.

Our job as parents is to raise our children to be healthy adults who can contribute to society. Some parents fail. Not only is it our job to teach our children to take care of their physical health but also their mental and emotional health. Children need to be taught how to deal with their emotions and express themselves. Children, who are not, reach adulthood with no idea how to deal with job loss, heartbreak, and their faltering self esteem. Something that should be just a blip on the radar turns into a life altering crisis. Imagine reaching adulthood with no idea how to brush your teeth, tie your shoes, or dress yourself. Adults who do not know how to deal with this emotional overload are at a similar disadvantage.

Parents must also nurture their child's self esteem and good qualities. Every child is innately good. In the movie The Help, Mae Mobley's mother was so negligent and neglectful it was evident to all. Abileen knew she had to drill into Mae Mobley her good qualities and that she mattered. Abileen loved Mae Mobley and wanted the best for her.

I love my children very much and have tried not to make the same mistakes my parents made. I never compared them to each other. I never belittled them. I listened to them. I fostered their interests. I told them how beautiful, smart, funny, kind, and loving they were and still are. Most of all, I have hugged them and told them how much I love them. All the things I longed for as a child and never received.

Many days I just have to stop, collect my thoughts,organize my emotions and just breathe.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V8rtJRlLdI8

Acceptance

Back to work today after being off four days. I suppose I am ready to head back. I have now worked there for two months and still feel like an outsider. There seem to be two frames of mind: original employees and people who started later. Many of these "original" employees had never worked in a restaurant before and have adopted some bad habits. They also are not open to suggestions. So I will keep my 8.5 years experience and use it to my advantage alone.  Corporate also has a policy of only allowing people to work 28 hours a week. So I am scheduled 5 shifts a week and some of these shifts are only 3 hours long. As the only breadwinner in my household, I cannot survive on these hours. Time for a change methinks.

There Has To Be a Beginning

That your life started off in reverse? Born an adult and getting younger every day? And no my name is not Benjamin Button.Why is being normal so important and who can define normal? Normal is so predictable and boring. Who wants to be boring? 








Passionate and emotional but afraid to be myself. Why? 
Afraid to be hurt one more time. The last few years

I have put a huge wall up and not allowed anyone close to me. Someone recently awoke something deep inside me. I am hoping he will give me a chance. I really am worth it.